I know this a silly writing prompt but at the same time it does make me come up with a very quick answer .
A name I would choose for myself ..
Daisy. My favorite flower.
I didn’t take too long to come up with this answer because as a small child I lived in a small island that had very few flowers aside from wild daisy’s.
I would pick the daisies and test everybody’s love against a daisy as though it was the end-all and be-all of Truth.
He loves me. He loves me not. He loves me. He loves me not…. Looking back now, I wonder why it mattered so much…. And who is he anyhow.
I’m guessing, in hindsight , it’s the prince from the Disney shows that made little girls dream of having that prince one day . As though we’re not worthwhile unless someone else loves us.
Not true.
I can be my own Daisy now . I can choose she loves me instead of he loves me because at the end of the day if I can’t love myself , then I’m not worthy to be loved by anyone else.
Approx. 9 years ago, I finally found the key to my weight loss., in a nutshell, Keto & Fasting; and in the simplest form, intermediate fasting & carbohydrate reduction.
One of my most hidden pictures.
My heart sinks even now when I see this picture, this one very bad angle. Good news is…I had just learned about keto. YIKES who was this morbidly obese old lady!! OMG That was me 😦
The weight gain started for me just after I lost my mom to lung cancer in 2007. Just prior, I had successfully lost 70 lb through the Herbal Magic program. I then managed to maintain that weight loss for 3 years. As long as I took their “who knows what” pills to maintain my weight loss, the pounds stayed away. As soon as I stopped taking the supplements, the weight came back and a lot more of it.
I still can’t believe that I was capable of getting out of that body! I know that statement seethes of self contempt, and you are right! I felt like I was cursed. It seemed like a cruel joke the universe was playing on me. Each pound pushed me away from the person I once recognized. I was slowly getting swallowed into something and someone I barely knew or could stand to look at.
I seldom took pictures of myself when I was heavy. This was at my work place in 2015-2016, just before my keto journey. I had been referred to a doctor who wrote a book about weight loss called “The Obesity Code.” I also received a referral to Dr. Jason Fung’s clinic in Toronto. Someone added it to the workplace share-drive. I was horrified! I deleted and saved it for myself as a motivation to get healthy.But I didn’t stay there. I have to really focus on that and maintenance is not easy. Maintenance is the hard part.
In approx. 3 years, I successfully lost 178lbs. Yes even while struggling through peri-menopause and post menopause.
I maintained a 170 of 178 loss for several years. I inadvertently gained a few of those “initial” lost pounds back. I felt I looked too gaunt at my lowest. The extreme weight loss created more wrinkles and loose skin than I hoped for. But I would rather be in normal size clothing with some loose skin rather than 330lbs!
My fittest year 2021
Yet I needed to stop losing weight at that point. I learned more about fasting and autophagy. I began fasting primarily for reasons other than weight loss. My skin needed time to regroup and catch up. My face especially became much older looking, which was so frustrating. after doing so much to look and feel healthy. However, now, years later, my skin has thankfully caught up
2020
2025
Weight loss and weight maintenance are not something that you can just stop doing. You have to continue to work on it forever for the rest of your life. It’s not a diet. It’s a lifestyle change.
Truth is weight maintenance is all of our goals isn’t it? A lifestyle and a toolbox that is ever changing combined with and an attitude of gratitude & a decision to never never ever give up !! .
Dr. Fung & Megan Ramos helped me to find the key that saved my life!!
Today I see so many people lining up for drugs like Ozempic for hope to reach their quick weight loss dreams. The former Keto craze seems to be falling to the side as people are pumping these substances into their bodies haphazardly, hoping to lose weight magically. Certainly, they absolutely do. But I’ve learned a key lesson from losing weight naturally. Adhering to strict protocols with my diet is a fact as weight loss had taught me that nothing long-lasting is ever that easy.
Certainly, people absolutely do lose weight… I’m not sure what these outcomes are for maintaining weight loss, and the sad thing is I’ve also been hearing so many horrible things about side effects and heart issues and depression and who knows what else will come out of those shots that people are taking . I too understand the desperation of wanting to get out of the body that causes health issues and shame from the entire world, but is that really the solution?.
I’ve learned many key lessons from losing weight naturally. Adhering to strict protocols with my diet taught me that nothing long-lasting is ever that easy. Sometimes it feels like it was just literally yesterday. Sometimes it feels like it’s a dream. Other times I still feel trapped in that nightmare. I fear waking up 300lbs + again. I was so stuck in that body, dying, incredibly unhealthy, struggling and so very sad.
2023 was a stressful year. I had gained 20 lbs and became post menopausal. My trusted weight-loss tried & trusted tools… no longer worked the same! I hit a plateau.
I started mad crazy Alternate Day Fasting in Jan 2025. I was able to peel back 12lbs of my weight gain. I did this by fasting 3 days one week and 4 days the next for 3 months.. Now Im hoping OMAD will do the rest as I move into One Meal A Day from June 2025, lets see what will happens now.
Maintaining weight loss is not an option, its a task and goal to continuously work on, Im worth it!!
I will keep my thoughts positive and redirect any negative thoughts that try to intrude on my ability to stay within myself. I have the power within myself and I am fully in control of my thoughts, feelings and safety.
I choose to think and feel only positive things. I forgive myself for the things I’ve done that may have caused anyone else harm along my life journey.
I forgive my past mistakes. I am worthy and care for myself completely. I define myself in the best light possible as I reach for higher awareness. I am a good person.
I am in full awareness that it is my energy and thoughts which create my happiness therefore today I am striving for an overflow of happy , positive thoughts.
I am imperfect. However, I still give myself permission to make mistakes, learn lessons and to prosper from those lessons, no matter how hard it is to be accountable.
Seeking more insight on who I am daily. Realizing I am a forever student of this life with much to learn. I like to write and to rhyme, to read and sometimes whine :) . I believe in living in the now, although the past often lures me to watch it like an old movie that is both familiar and a comfort. This life moves along no matter what. Each morn a each new day with promise of the past and a hint of the future all mixed in one. I write about things that touch my life and things that I feel passionate about. I will also be writing about things that make me want to rant and complain. I'm still trying to figure it all out, but I am on my way.
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